Victims of bullying can develop dysmorphia, a distorted image of their own body that can lead to eating disorders and to different forms of addiction. This facts are poignantly revealed by Brian Cuban.
"All, he said in a recent interview, stemmed from the "monster" he began
seeing in his mirror as a socially crippled teenager who was overweight
and bullied, both at school and by his own mother, herself a victim of
body-focused verbal abuse from his grandmother.
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http://www.apa.org/news/psycport/PsycPORTArticle.aspx?id=ap_2013_08_05_ap.online.all_DA7VUHCO2_news_ap_org.anpa.xml
Brian has a blog that can give you insight into what you are dealing with and, hopefully, on how to change it. http://www.briancuban.com/category/eating-disorders-2/#.UhGYED8rVIo
Freedom from victimization is a choice always available to you, at any age and in any season of your life. The choice is yours. To get there you might need the help not just of friends and family but of those that have gained experience in healing, whether pastors, lay ministers, lay counselors, counselors, or psychologists. But, you will get there. When you get there, the choice is yours. I pray that you will choose the be FREE.
If you don't want to get there, maybe, you are enamored of your victimization, you are too familiar with the effects and the negatives it stimulates. They have become part of your system, perhaps?
